All in a day's work

Pemilik aura bercahaya

2012-02-15T07:08:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

I have a cousin of mine named Shahril and his wife who are currently selling Bio-aura. Sadly, this post is not about them.

Have you smiled today? No? Did something made you unhappy this morning? Woke up late or forgot something?

I have felt those feelings before, such as today. Woke up later than usual.. 6.45am.. felt like crying.. usually I wake up at 4.45am or 5 am.. but yesterday I stayed at the library tll 11pm so I guess it was worth it?

I am reading the 8th habit by Stephen Covey, read his previous book ages ago. He said, for every stimulus there will be a response. But he also said that in between the stimulus and response there is an interstitial room for 'freedom to choose'! Wow! I am amazed! Kiranya kita boleh membuat keputusan yang BIJAK daripada pilihan yg kurang bijak sebelum bertindak!

You see, I am a very 'cepat buat tindakan melulu' person. Without thinking hard, I would just shoot at the answer, or in lay man's term 'too anxious' one... T_T Very risky too, this habit.. tak caya? cuba you tengok personality mengikut bulan by Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah:

APRIL
sgt aktif dan dinamik, cepat bertindak buat keputusan tetapi cepat menyesal, sgt menarik dan pandai manjakan diri, punya daya mental yg sangat kuat, suka diberi perhatian, sgt diplomatik (pandai memujuk ), berkawan dan pandai menyelesaikan masalah org, sgt berani dan tiada perasaan takut, suka adventure, pengasih, penyayang, sopan santun dan pemurah, emosi cepat terusik, try control the emotion, kecenderungan bersifat dendam, agresif, kelam kabut utk membuat keputusan, kuat daya ingatan, gerak hati yg sangat kuat, pandai mendorong diri sendiri dan memotivasikan org lain, berpenyakit disekitar kepala dan dada, sgt cemburu dan terlalu cemburu

Memang tepat cepat menyesal tuh.. Nasib baik aku ni Muslim, jadi leh lah sandarkan pada takdir juga.. huhu.
Jadi sebagai seorang yang aktif dan dynamic, takkan la nak biarkan kekurangan diri ini terus berleluasa.. jadi haku pun nak la improve diri. Semalam, ada la satu tindakan yang agak kurang bijak yang aku lakukan.. instead of doing an important task, I did the opposite. haih... sbb tak pikir panjang la tu..

Ok, jadi apa kaitan dengan tajuk pada hari ini? iaitu ' pemilik aura bercahaya'. Actually I want to become a very positive person.. and I learned that to become positive, you need to come up with POSITIVE reasoning..

ada la satu kisah ni..

aku ni nak plan buat satu program, satgi mainperson aku untuk program itu tak reply email, sms dan call.. jadi terdetik dalam diri ni, "cesss, tak nak join ckp je la. hamiis betui hang ni"..
cuba bayangkan muka aku masa ckp ayat di ataas ni? bengis, kening terangat, mulut mencebik.. rasanya2 comel tak muka aku masa mengeluarkan 'aura' atau pendapat ini? Wah wah wah... mestila tidak comel.

tp pihak kebaikan di dalam diri mula counter notion tuh tadi.. 'eh husnuzon shereenku manja meow2.. mungkin si dia ni bz bangat dong! Mari doakan semoga Allah permudahkan urusannya dan urusan kau juga ya. Ameenn yang panjang'. Haa cuba pulak bygkan muka aku semasa ber'aura' begini.. anggun, sopan dan cun bukan? Dapat rasakan malaikat bertepuk kepak di tepi2 ku.. wahhahaha. bila malaikat dah kelilingi kita, mesti la kita dapat cahaya kan?

Yela, bak kata Rasulullah saw, kalau kawan ngan orang membuat besi, mesti mendapat habuknya, kalau jadi kawan pembuat perfume, mesti mendapat sket baunya.. kalau kawan ngan MALAIKAT mesti dapat cahaya mereka!!!! kalau tak duduk je bawah lampu! ching!

OK, jom kawan ngan malaikat dan tepuk kepak (malaikat only) dan tangan (manusia) yeahh !!

agak segan untuk berposing muka penuh sbb ___ ~ but you get the cahaya part right?

ps: sorry Abg shahril dan kak Hanim, kureng support sket multi level marketing...dengar cerita, MLM tuh gaji tak halal..wallahualam..

Syukur

2012-02-14T17:23:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Pada Allah yang tersayang, terima kasih kerana sudi mencampakkan rasa SYUKUR kembali ke dalam jiwa hamba Mu yang riak ini..

Sungguh, menjaga hati itu suatu perjuangan yang halus. I would rather prefer the sharp sword than the khilaf of my eyes, heart, mouth and ears.... Astaghfirullah...

Allah please forgive me..

Yesterday Allah showed me the meaning of faith.. Kristen ( a muslim revert) brought me to an interfaith meeting.. I met a 3 people who were atheist.. At first I didn't not believe that they do not believe in god..any god in this matter. When I asked them about their stand, they proudly say that 'intelligent people do not believe in god'.. tersetap, senyap.. sepi rasa jiwa sekejap dengar.. (monolog dalam hati : nak kata aku ni not as intelligent as you all are la?)

Wahai kawan atheist ku.. tidakkah kau sedar semalam berbeza dari hari ini? Tidakkkah kau sedar snow di Michigan ini unpredictable? Tidak pernahkkah ada sesiapa menunjukkan engkau kematian dan berjaya menghidupkan? Tidakkah kau dapat melihat ahli panel kita semalam tiada yang serupa rupanya? Tidakkah kau mendengar rentak deruan air? Tidakkah kau BERSYUKUR kau bangun di pagi tadi? Siapa yang mencipta dan menduga jika bukan Allah? Siapa yang sentiasa merancang racangan kau dan merosakkannya?

Siapa? Bagaimana? Teori apa nak guna?

Sesungguhnya ayat - ayat Allah itu mmg benar..

4:88

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Sahih International

What is [the matter] with you [that you are] two groups concerning the hypocrites, while Allah has made them fall back [into error and disbelief] for what they earned. Do you wish to guide those whom Allah has sent astray? And he whom Allah sends astray - never will you find for him a way [of guidance].

And yet, selepas itu aku tetap hanyut dalam arus secularism..

Allah, mataku...

Allah, hatiku...

Allah, mulutku..

Allah, telingaku...

Kalaulah semuanya boleh dicuci dengan air mata, mesti aku sudah menangis sampai mati..

Ampun kan aku sekiranya aku tidak berfikir dan sedar semasa Engkau mencampakkan aku hidayahMu

Ampunkan aku sekiranya Kau sendiri yang membutakan aku, memekakkan telingaku, menghitamkan hatiku dan membusukkan mulutku.. apakah aku tidak layak lagi untuk kasih sayang Mu? T_T

serabut.. pening

2012-02-13T09:45:00.000-08:00

hanya ada satu semester

beban dakwah yang pelbagai harus dilaksanakan dalam tempoh ini

tajmik yang baru - lokasi,masa dan wang... yes wang dollarss..

berkenalan dengan jiran baru dengan agenda mulia yang tersembunyi, pelbagai hasrat dan perancangan utk mereka

mengejar cita-cita mendapat 4.0 pada semester ni.. tipis.. tp baru permulaan..

pekerjaan internship yang goyah..

mengejar hafalan juzuk 30 masih.. juzuk 30... T_T

menguruskan berat badan... bila nak sampai target ni..terus swimming dan yoga..

ingin mula menulis buku.. tp buntu..

volunteer work bersama MSA..

bekalan usrah untuk ku dan adik2..
buku-buku akademic dan islamic yang perlu diserap ke dada permanently..
berfikir sentiasa berfikir untuk mereka...

penat... penat sgt ya Allah...

ya Allah jgn biarkan aku keseorangan..

Tutup buku lama, bermulalah lembaran baru

2011-12-16T12:59:00.000-08:00

Hmmm~ ~~ mmm~~ sudah 2 tahun setengah aku di bumi usa ni. Pernah bermimpi nak ke Harvard masa dibangku sekolah dahulu, itu pun sebab nak sedapkan hati mum and babah. tak sangka, kata - kata kosong seorang budak Allah makbulkan..dapat jugak jejak kaki di land of opportunity ni. Pejam celik pejam celik dah hampir tiba masa untuk kembali ke tempat asal. Sedih ada Gembira ada.. Tak sure la, tp byk jejak dan kesan aku telah tinggalkan di sekitar hemisfera utara ni, harapnya byk hati telah aku takhluki. =')

Sejak aku ke sini dahulu, matlamat aku satu.. islam mesti tertegak dan aku mesti jadi salah seorang pendokongnya.. Ujian hebat, first sem aku dah tersungkur. Hidup ibarat puting beliung, mencari tiang untuk bergantung, semua tak kesampaian. Sem kedua masih teragak2, kadang- kadang ada merasa hendak berundur. Third sem aku tempuhi juga, lebih yakin dalam jalannya. Dan fourth sem baru sahaja berlalu. Alhamdulillah. Setiap langkah yang sukar itu, apabila dilihat semula, mmg worth every ounce of energy. Cepatkan masa. Tapi ujian itu indah, Allah angkat aku kembali bersamaNya. Satu persatu 'kami' tempuhi bersama. Hilang kawan perjuangan satu persatu.. dapat pengenalan dengan yang baru dan yang muda - muda. Terasa seperti seorang nenek pun ada kadang2. *senyum leret*

Aku lihat, ada kala nya aku terjatuh, bangun lagi, jatuh.. no perfect landing. I guess itu memang kehidupan. Kepada rakan baru dan lama.. jalan ini mmg mencabar, tapi Allah sentiasa bersama kita. Hanya yang ikhlas kepadaNya yang akan have their final touch down in Jannah. *mengeluh panjang*

Dalam otak kita ni, syaitan rajin sogokkan angan2 kosong. Tolak jauh - jauh, kawan. Malas, berdosa, tidak layak, bodoh, keji, hina, buruk... itu bukan engkau syg, itu syaitan semata2. Ayuh, aku pimpin tangan kau dan kau pimpin tangan aku, sama - sama kayh! Jom jadi orang beriman sama- sama, sbb Allah janji kan, Dia kata nak naikkan darjat kita tau!

ps: rasanya Rasulullah dan para sahabat mesti rasa sedih/sakit/perit/hina hilang bila Allah bg diorg masuk syurga. =')

Yang sentiasa berdosa,
Aisha Shereen

8 more days to go

2011-12-04T06:48:00.000-08:00

There is 8 more days to go for my first final exam to be scored (FTW~~~!!) Been having weird and entertaining dreams yet lately. Right now am inspired to use every single ~~minute~~ second for future success! And after that~ long sweet love holiday~ future destination? Inshallah london home sweet home ~ lake district~ belfast ireland ~ manchester road trip ~ istanbul turkey!!~~ xD

subhanallah~ hopefully all turns well. behave shereen, behave~ =)

I hope you all are going to have a loving winter break too~ xD

7 Billion, National Geographic Magazine

2011-11-30T16:46:00.000-08:00

masa yang habis

2011-11-30T16:39:00.000-08:00

aku baru sahaja melalui hari/minggi/semester yang begitu hectic. tarik nafas dan lepas. ke manakah pergi kau oh masa? ibadah, kemas rumah, pelajaran yang berterabur dan bermacam lagi, tambahan pula hari ini salju amat tebal. Apakan daya. Hari ini tiada rehat untukku. Bak kata orang soleh, rehat itu di syurga. =)

bygkan ye, aku selesai buat laundry pada hari ahad, tp punya la busy tak sempat ambil, baru tadi ambil.
bygkan ye, aku nak pergi gym tak sempat menyempat lagi.
serabut!! yes, pasni nak istigfar solat dan teruskan hidup. yang penting fbk bye2~ xD

aisha shereen

Topic penat

2011-11-22T10:12:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum,

Writing my salam was more tiresome rather saying it. Ops, not maybe not in the mood to talk right now! gersszz
And so, come here ramai2 hear me whine. I am going to tell you the busy life of de Bean. I have usrah, study life and personal life. sounds easy right. But not really especially if you jumble up all up at once. Exactly the feeling inside a washing machine. For instance, for this week, let me show you what are installed for me:

Today (Selasa)
1) Online exam
2) Prepare for quiz esk
3) Run treadmill - 1 hour
4) Buat ringkasan ila aina mad'u naas ( yes, kene baca satu majmuk rasail tuh)
5) Sediakan soalan bengkel
6) Sediakan soalan feedback
7) Get everything align for Tamrin!
8) Danielle nak datang rumah

Rabu
1) Quiz and exam 313
- Quiz Abm 222
2) Broiler report
3) Manure management report
4) Qadaya untuk tamrin (malam)
5) Study materials islamic untuk tamrin and exam

Khamis
1) Thanks giving dinner with danie and fam
2) Tam rin all the wayyyyyy @_@

Jumaat
1) Tamrin

Sabtu
1) Tamrin...

ok doakan me my love!

New Food Blog

2011-11-14T14:49:00.000-08:00

Hello,

I have been a passionate cook all my life, probably had gotten the talent from my father, a jack of all trades himself. Will be posting my cooking pictures and recipes to share with you all at my adjacent blog - www.shesodecadent.blogspot.com . Do visit and comments will be appreciated, especially if you tried the recipe!

Love,
Foodie Nom Nom Chef~

Puncak harapan

2011-11-14T11:25:00.000-08:00

In everyday's work and turmoil, there must be a situation that you can't control and seems that you have lost the 'real you'. This is 'normal', I tell myself repeatedly. The truth is I do not know. Probably a dim-wit knows better than I do. For some reason, I have lost my English fluency in writing and conversing. I do and can speak very well American English though, sadly. 'Hey ya'll wacha doin? Fancy some dishes?' Well not exactly but something like that. However, I have seem to lost my ability to articulate in my usual-newspaper-report English which is getting more evident as I spend less and less time reading English books.

The prophet once said, that we should be the masters of all languages so that we will be refrained from harm when dealing with a person from a different race. In my feeble opinion, it is a sin to forget something as valuable as knowledge. T_T

In the beginning of every semester or a new phase in life albeit BIG or small, I will have this huge rush of endorphins in my veins with clear mission and vision in life, charging forward by all means. Half-time and I'm almost swiped clean, out of rehab. How can I get more of this 'good drugs'? But then, looking back in time, I have fed my mind with 'low substance reading' such as blog hopping, 'addictive facebooking', and most of all stayed at home to study. Dear Friends, home is the worst place to study.

Alas here I am in the middle of the semester trying to re-evaluate back my previous life, as so to speak. Gathering all the bits and pieces that had been hanging around me loosely. Focusing my on where the heck is my priority and coming into a conclusion about myself. It's a beautiful journey, discovering yourself that it. Combined as one, heart and soul, fighting back together the badness of this world ( al falaq: 4) and respecting each other.

What I learned so far is that, mistakes are done to get us experience. Experience makes us better. Sadness is an eye opener. Love then completes the cycle of life my making us forget about sadness. *Deep breath in, deep breath out..*

Let's continued to be educated by Him, the best of all teachers. Bismillah.

Pagi yang ceria dan segar~!

2011-10-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum~

Pagi ni~ lepas subuh rasa semangat dan ceria semacam~ lalalalalalalaaa~ esk exam dan mesti bersungguh2! yosh!! Rasanya ini lah perasaan setelah habis berjuang~ Berjuang emosi je pown~ hahahaha. Okla kenkawan nak bersungguh2 harinie haiyalah falah!

called timah and posted something at hana's wall.. only Allah knows how much I miss them, Hujung minggu ni ada IFR, subhanallah~ *menangis gembira dan terharu* Allah is so loving~ I love u too~

Saya ini rajin jugak la bukak belog orang lain. Kadang- kadang kalau asik tekan blogspot kita pun tak ke mana kan~ (macam bajet blog terbaik) hikhik. So~ ada satu trend dikalangan bloggers community ini adalah advocates untuk Nuffnang akan promote iklan seperti contest product-product tertentu, photoshoot contests and many more. Tambahan pula, contest - contest ini malang sekali tidak di sajikan dalam bentuk ilmiah malah amat berkonsepkan game dan mesti tertonggok di depan komputer untuk memenangi contest tersebut. Ini adalah satu masalah ye tuan-tuan dan puan puan sbb nye adalah satu bentuk sumbangan kepada nilai -nilai kita sebagai seorang muslim justeru memberi impak kepada masyarat muslim kita. Bygkan kalau hanya 1/4 sahaja dari rijal2 kita main game or menghabiskan masa untuk memenangi contest2 begini, dan kita di ajak untuk berperang, tentera islam kita sudah kekurangan 25% (eh percentage la plak, layan~)

Point saya adalah, jgn la kita menjadi orang yang 'promote' kejahilan untuk berleluasa, nescaya tindakan kita yang jahil itu akan membuatkan dunia ini makin gempak dan optimum kejahilannya. Tak pasal-pasal dosa orang yang membuat saranan kita itu, kita jugak yang tanggung.

Ana justeru menyarankan agar kita esp Muslims memikirkan tindakan kita sebelum:

a) membuka mulut dan mengeluarkan statement yang jahil dan convince orang untuk berbuat jahil skali

b) membuat tindakan atau keputusan terburu-buru untuk terus terikut dengan arus kejahilan yang orang jahil yang promote

c) membuat generalization iaitu orang yang nak berjaya atau femes itu akan buat macam bloggers tuh ckp.

Rezeki itu Allah yang bg babe, relaks sudey. Its written. However, since we have no idea of what He wrote (Allah's diary) just do our best to follow His direction (Quran).

Our generation is the generation of the least quran readers. Hape nak jadi ye, apa kata kalau bloggers2 ada baca ni, kita stop promoting iklan -iklan yang kurang bermanfaat tuh dan aktipkan pula iklan-iklan ke arah kebaikan! Jomss~ zasss~

So ana nak promote kebaikan kat sini, apa kata kita sama2 baca blog ini :http://angelwearsgucci.blogspot.com/2011/07/revolusi-bulatan-gembira.html

Jiwa kita mmg serasi la angel wears gucci, sbb saya rasa kami share perasaan yang sama. lol!!!!!!!

Ok, harinie ada interview dengan P&G punya salesperson. doakan!!!

A wedding plan too early ;P

2011-10-10T09:22:00.000-07:00

Salamualaikum,

I really looking forward in doing my own wedding day~ since recently ramai had gotten married and people nowadys are so creative!

tgk la video my seniors masa kat kusess dulu bercinta sampai kawen~ mmg terus rasa nak kawin jugak! haha
wedding katrina and shahrin

And so I have decided to start my wedding reception planning and compiling the stuffs since I am in USA and DIY stuffs are prettyy cheap!

The location that I am planning to do:

Borneo of Sabah, beside the sea~

The decorations would be based like a sea kinda setting~

something like this but on the sand~

hanging letters like shereen love ______~ Awww
I would personally ajak around 100 people je coz I want it to be private and bukan soo elaborate macam perkahwinan melayu adat2 ni~ so what orang melayu nak cakp belakang or nak jaga hati whatever, I want that day to be my day with the people that I love and I know who have really been loving me. ;)

As for the dress~ I will be making them myself: my logic would be, if man could create that, why on earth another man can't!

this will be the base

the top should be lacey

trying to combine all this: tiffany baby blue~ flowy~ with shell colored pearls and lacey~

I would go for grilled seafood cuisine on that day. The time of my wedding should start after asr so that it will be less hot and we could all solat at the sea for maghrib, amik wudhu from air laut je. awww~~

Ameen~

pics courtesy of Adrianni, google, tumbler etc~

Bestfriends to me

2011-09-18T17:07:00.000-07:00

Sometimes when I feel down or happy I would simultaneously think about a person. I have known this girl from the very first semester in Michigan, USA. It was on my first trip to a cabin and having hiking and other outdoorsy stuff.. it was danielle... the girl 3 years older than me, opening her car door with her barefootness.. always there to support me and never once forgot about me as I had never forget about her. Its a special bond. We dont meet often but when we do, we just 'click' together as if it was meant for us to be good warm budddies together. I don't feel the guilt to ask her to help me, and I dont even have to think how to talk to her, we just have so many things to talk about and the free - ness of telling anything we want to each other, private or non private. I cried recently when we met because I told her that I am graduating next year.. its sad to think that I could not see her anymore and do more outdoor stuff. She is so caring about me and I hope we get to enter heaven later together. =)

A tribute to danny wanny~ 2 years and counting inshallah~ =))

Webcam 101 for Seniors....

2011-09-15T18:53:00.000-07:00

I need a husband like this pronto! Sila personal message me if YOU would like to grow old with me. k, thanks!

Debussy, Clair de lune (piano music)

2011-09-11T18:50:00.000-07:00

Dear Debussy,

It's my feelings exactly~ @_@

Insecurities

2011-09-10T17:49:00.000-07:00

Memandang jauh nun kehadapan atom-atom di screen komputer sambil menaip apa yang sedang berlalu di dalam minda.

Hari ni nak share sedikit tentang my psychological thinking ya.. bukan selalu ni nak sharing maring yang personal - personal sgt. So pay attention, read sampai habes and comment. ahaks. just kidding, baik tutup screen ni dan pi solat sunat. ;)

Pernah tak rasa diri kita ni tak cukup bagus. Apabila berdepan dengan orang pandai sket je, tetibe terasa bodoh ya amat. Bila berdepan ngan orang cantik macam cantiklah kan, tetiba rasa hodoh macam gollum.. bila berdepan dengan daie hebat, rasa cam munafiq.. bila berdepan dengan kesunyian rasa takut... bila berdepan dengan realiti hidup sendiri, rasa nak give up.. bila berjumpa dengan sejarah lama, rasa nak larikan diri dan tanamkan muka ni dalam tanah macam ostrich..

Aku sedang berusaha keras untuk mengubah hidup sekarang ni.. tp perubahan yang besar itu menakutkan.. kerana its not certain..Making changes for me right now is really hard because selama ni asik tutup sebelah mata je.. not anymore.. Inshallah its going to be worth it for the future. =)

Vague ke tak vague kan~ kalau leh relate ngan hidup sendiri, relate lah.. kalau takleh then sila blahh~~~

tudung masa ni mmg tanak coorperate =_= tudung ni mmg ske sgt wat hal sendri~

preparing mentally for eid

2011-08-29T09:09:00.000-07:00

Kita ni org melayu, kalau seminggu sebelum raya tuh dah ready dah order macam2 baru i.e baju, perabot etc.
Kalau kat rumah saya, my father bukan jenis macam itu. Dia kata itu membazir. Tapi ofcos mak saya kata itu 'kadang2' punya shopping. Apapun, saya rasa MODERATION itu penting.

Esok raya dan malam ni ada takbir dekat rumah Auntie Zainin dan Uncle Toha, alahai~ macamana ni? Saya kerja petang ni sampai malam, 5 kali seminggu. So ofcos takde la nak bersakan2 nak feeling macam kat kampung tuh sbb saya sedar 'raya sakan' is not going to happen to me. Sincerely takde la rasa sedih sgt sbb saya mmg nak kumpul byk2 duit ni sbb nak jadi kaya and berkerjaya. LOL! wekkk tp apa salahnya anak melayu bercita2 tinggi dan sanggup berkorban demi masa depan? berkarisma bukan? >_<

Yang penting smalam saya menangis teruk (sampai hingus keluar byk) semasa solat terawih kerana takut dosa saya tidak diampunkan oleh Allah. Masa sahur tadi kata dekat diri sendiri 'huu sedeynya nak berpisah dgn sahur?" hehe

Tapi harinie masih ada baki2 ramadhan jadi doa pun makbul dan pintu syurga masih terbuka. So agenda harinie, nak kemas rumah. buat kueh kacang dan almond choc chip untuk dijual masa ADC di Purdue nanti demi nak mengumpul duit untuk masjid east lansing.

Sila la ke 'fund-raising for east lansing mosque' dan hantar donation anda ke ahmadter@msu.edu. meh saya letak description cause terebut di bawah:

Salamualaikum, brothers and sisters..

I, Shereen ahmdtermizi and my friends that are students from Malaysia are trying to collect $5000 for our masjid at the place we study which is Michigan State University. We often visit this masjid and the community needs a lot of money to expand the muslimah's prayer room. It is so crowded with kids and sometime women have to pray very near to the toilet. This is a long journey to complete the pledge we made and we need every single penny that could help. The masjid is the heart of the community and the place Muslims take shelter and help. It is up to us to make sure that the masjid will be there for the future generation. There are 3 things that we can bring to our afterlife and one of it is charity. I hope all the youths will take this matter seriously and put this in our hearts everyday and always think about the future of the ummah. The privilege of having a masjid today is because of the charity of our ancestors. So, come and DONATE now!

You can donate through Paypal to:
ahmadter@msu.edu

If you have any problems or questions please contact the email above.

Please tell your friends and family to help us raise the fund for our masjid and to buy your ticket to jannah Insya Allah.

Website	http://lansingislam.com

ramadhan ya ramadhan~

2011-08-24T17:18:00.000-07:00

This ramadhan has indeed been one of the most memorable ones in my life. This is the ramadhan where I did challenged myself and learned to re-evaluate myself. It is me and my own devil. Scary sometimes to know that my bad habits are from me. Inikah ciri2 insan masuk syurga? Astaghfirullah. Indeed x layak.

However, I am still breathing, which is a good sign because I do get to do one thing dead people could not (other than blogging) is TAUBAH. I get to repent of all the long list of wrong doings.

I pushed myself saying that I do not want to make any sin this ramdhan. But what I am kidding right? I am human. I make mistake, progressed with taubah and never repeat it again. I think a lot of people think falling down is hard but I think that rising up after falling is impeccable.

Truth be told we are all sinners, no better you than me. Then why envy? haha. Life full of its idolism ironies.

This ramdhan is difficult for me to do good, maybe because of the shame and despair meeting Allah without the 'hijab' of syaitan and only exposing the devil in me. Astaghfirullah Allah, please save me from whatever have you created..

itulah erti 'waktu'

2011-08-08T19:59:00.000-07:00

waktu terlalu pantas
melintar pergi tanpa henti
bunyinya sepi
melalaikan naluri insani

aku terlalu berharap
aku terlalu gembira
hingga terlupa akan waktu
walhal waktu sentiasa memerhati

waktu kadang kala kejam
tiada memberi peluang kedua
akhirnya masa pun sudah tiba
untuk hati kembali berduka lara.

sekian sahaja nukilan sedih buat kali ini setelah hampir sebulan hati melupakan diri

Sekadar bermimpi disiang hari

2011-07-11T10:38:00.000-07:00

Assalamulaikum,

Banyak perkara yang sejak dua menjak ini yang berjaya menjana dendrit di otak saya untuk menyalurkan cas2 proton kepada ganglion-ganglionnya.. aka berfikir. Mengenai apa? Mengenai manusia yang kuat memberi alasan pada diri sendiri dan orang di persekitaranya untuk tidak melakukan hukum hakam Allah. Malah, makin bijak mengatur bicara dalam perdebatan seolah-seolah fakta-fakta mereka disahkan benar oleh generasi kini. Habesla.. umatku, umatku, umatku -Rasullullah saw. Memang benar kata beliau..

Kredibiliti Al-quran dan as sunnah kini sudah jatuh tempat ke 3 selepas GOOGLE dan juga WIKIPEDIA. Tiada lagi generasi yang Al-quran friendly lagi ke? Jangan beritahu aku, kau pun google untuk tahu ayat Al quran yang kau cari di google.. ingatkan aku seorang sahaja yang berbuat begitu. Jom malu bersama - sama. Sejak dua menjak ini aku byk berkata-kata dengan Allah, apa yang harus aku buat untuk masuk syurga? Betul ke aku buat begini atau apabila aku buat cara begitu? Boleh ke aku respon begini atau begitu..

Alhamdulillah, Islam mmg berjaya menukar manusia.. aku yang dulu begitu becok seperti murai sekarang sudah senyap seperti burung hantu di atas pokok. Hanya sesekali mengeluarkan bunyi 'hoot.... hoot...hoot'.
Aku sekarang lebih gemar mendengar, memahami dan menaikkan semangat rakan seperjuangan dari berkata - kata kosong inshallah. Lawak aku masih bersama, tak dek luput dek hujan. Walaupun aku selalu tersalah peribahasa melayu contohnya semasa menghantar email baru2 ini aku terletak ' sambil menyelam, minum air laut'. Aku telah ditegur dalam email seterusnya oleh seorang hamba Allah, 'bahaya minum air laut'. Tapi apakan daya, aku rasa dah menyelam dalam air laut, minum air laut lah kan, takkan coke pulak. Biarkan aku hanya makhluk picisan. *ehem*

Itu hanyalah mukadimah. Sebenarnya aku ingin berbicara perihal cita-cita aku dan dunia ini. Antara lokasi baru yang aku dambakan untuk pergi adalah AURORA BORALIS di Iceland. Mashallah! Apakah selama ini aku buta? Atau terlupa akan KEBESARAN ALLAH yang begitu menakjubkan sehingga bergelinangan air mata aku melihat gambar boralis tersebut. (akan aku namakan anak aku nanti AURORA BORALIS) biarlah sekadar melihat gambar dan membayangkan aku sudah berada dihadapan itu. Tapi aku sendiri tidak berasa layak untuk melihat perkara secantik itu, kerana aku hina. Tapi aku dapat rasanya tentunya syurga seindah dan lebih dari itu. Nak pergi! teriak hatiku. Mesti rupa Allah dan kingdom of heavenNya sangat cantik.. oouhh... tlg la Allah, pilihlah aku!

rest and work

2011-07-04T22:42:00.000-07:00

what would life be with all work? what would life be with all rest? imbalance leads to failure. I don't want to end up too worked up or too rested. So how can I know?

Im scared actually. Tomorrow is my first day of work after years of not working. I used to fancy the 'working experience' and after my first job at sushi king at 18 years old, I was ready to eat my words back. *gulp*

Can I juggle work and study and family and usrah and rest and etc? Lillahita a'la... I don't have the slightest clue. For my baby, good luck on your exam tomorrow. May Allah and my prayers be with you, inshallah.. =')
Fistabiqul khoirat, inshallah I can do it. Do it for lillahita a'la... =)

second chance

2011-07-03T19:06:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

I would love to say that I have finished my exams last Friday but not exactly. I still have a SECOND CHANCE exam yang compulsory by the professor in my ACCOUNTANCY class. Sincerely, I am not really a numbers person. I'd rather use instinct. haha. I can make sense of numbers (mind you, I am not stupid ), but its just not my interest, unless kira balik hutang org? (yes, yes,yes)

Its due tonite at 2 am. Currently 25% way through it. Susah wokey class online. First time taking it, during summer... =_= I just feel exhausted mentally, spiritually and physically. After winter had passed and had a week break and continued my summer 1 and after a weekend I have to continue summer 2. Its not that I hate studying.. but just preferred if I could get a boost or a break to reconcile. Get everything back organized and ready to go! I think education should be free. In fact, if should be continuous till we die. Yes, if its free, some people might take advantage of it.. but isn't that education is for?

I don't know.. well other than talking here with you I am going to share to you the incident I had with my Deodorant! I used (since small) white cake kinda deodorant tau.. but I always have to wash it back and re-apply so that it doesnt have putih-putih2 blob and sometimes if too long under the armpit it will smell like hangit onion.. whewww so recently I have been introduced to a more naturale kind, its organic! (goo green, goo white!!)

And I am telling you, I smell awesome and the 'arghh' smell of cake deodorants are gone! let me share you the pics ok. And anyone who has problems with deodorant, smell, texture and skin related to that armpit area, do msg me or facebook me at 'shereen termizi' or ahmadter@msu for this same deodorant! It costs 10 dollars each including shipping. I will deliver it for you. But trust me, wallahi, it works wonder. Come back to nature ok. =)))

menipu tak lekat kat baju konon.. please dont wear black kalau pakai cake based deodorant!!

natural ingredients at least you are familiar with the ingredients right? =)

the 'ingredients' are also made from high chemical that can cause cancer... =_+

Love,

Sheen bean

Holiday in Indiana~

2011-06-26T15:25:00.000-07:00

Salam,

Astaghfirullah, today had usrah with kak shahira about takabbur. Men-reflectkan diri sekejap tadi and had a 1-to-1 session with kak shahira. (biasala, adik kesayangan) ihiks! ^_^ Manusia tak boleh takabbur dengan Allah, nabi, malaikat dan sesama hamba. Sesama hamba tak boleh nak takabbur dar segi:

1) ilmu
2) ibadah
3) keturunan
4) kecantikan
5) harta
6) kekuatan
7) followers

Astaghfirullah, nauzubillah.. semoga Allah lindungi kita semua dari takabbur. Sebab kalau ada sekulumit pun rasa takabbur ni Allah takkan bg masuk jannah. Nauzubillah. So apa takabbur ni kan? Tadi Aisha ade tanya kak shahira:

Aisha: Kak, saya ada sifat takabbur tak. *pasal diri sendiri tanya org pulak*

KS: Akak tak layak untuk determine itu kecuali diri awk sendiri. Cuba awk muhasabah Aisha

Aisha: *muhasabah* Ada rasanya....... =_="

Takabbur ni ada perasaan yg menidakkan kelemahan diri sendiri dan sentiasa merasakan diri sendiri ni lebih baik dari hamba yg lain dalam apa juga keadaan. Kadang- kadang kan, pada keadaan yang mmg kita betul, kita masih tidak boleh confident kita ni 100% betul sbb kita bukan maksum. Jadi macam dekat MSU ni, ada pernah melalui beberapa pertelingkahan dengan orang lain, dan selalunya AKU akan merasakan diri aku ni 80-90% betul. Astaghfirullah.. sebaik2nya rasa la as if kita ni 50% betul and 50 % bersalah untuk tidak lagi takbbur. Sebab rasionalnya, kalau dah asik2 rasa 100% bersalah tuh dah ada masalah konfiden dah tuh. hehehe ^_^. Ok disini, saya nak mengaku saya mmg ada byk salah.. maafkan saya ye semua.

Pastuh harini ahad, esk isnin, pastuh selasa pastuh rabu (exam) , pastuh khamis (exam) pastuh jumaah (merdeka!)

Hari ahad ni nak ke PURDUE untuk berjumpa dengan hanna mahat dan shieren yahaya. my best buddies and saje nak berjauhlah sket. Asik duduk terperap kat rumah ni study x dapat mende. hehe. =) Doakan yeh!

Selagi tuh nak siapkan assignment yg due esk malam ni. tata~

change

2011-06-24T22:56:00.000-07:00

This title is non related to Obama. thanks.

I realized that this summer is a lil bit slow going for me. Currently taking classes and trying out my first job on the 5th of July. Right after independence day. Now is 1.12am and I just solat tahajud after finishing my period. Today I want to write about the changes that I feel going on these few months.

Sleeping cycle
I used to sleep at 8pm and wake up at 3-4 am in the morning but now no. I sleep after fajr which is like 4.30 am and wake up at 10am in the morning! Dramatic change right but its just how my body reacts to the dramatic change of solat time too I assume. How can I sleep at 8pm when maghrib is at 9.15pm right? Currently the idea of sleeping after fajr seems reasonable as by doing this inshallah I will not miss tahajud and fajr. Btw, do you know that Abu Bakr did not SLEEP before doing tahajud. It is not COMPULSORY to sleep before tahajud. So why not.

Study life
Last semester I was so diligent going to the library. I think I almost went there 4-5 times a week! But this summer semester I barely step out of the house( taking online classes pulak tuh) mmg tak lah kan. I realized sitting inside the house makes me less focused compared to when I am in campus! Ade je pinggan nak basuh, air kopi nak bancuh, biskut nak cicah, nak sapu sampah, buang sampah, siram pokok,.. nak jadikan cerita macam-macam nak buat other than studying. hehe. =PpppP Today is saturday and including today I have 5 days to prepare before I have my finals.

Concentration
I have no booster to study, rasa malas and nak give up cepat2 nak holiday. Tgk kawan pergi Japan, Istanbul and MALAYSIA... makes me wanna weep tahu! Dahlah alot and amal dah balik, mmg series rasa takde kawan and quite lonely. 5days je lagi sheen, you can do it! But 5 days feels like 5 years. I have tried arranging my room, cleaning it up and macam2 tp boost my spirit.. but maybe my spirit is tired.. exhausted.. haihzz
bersusah2 dulu bersenang2 kemudian kan~ the truth is I have a feeling that I am not interested in my subjects that I am currently taking, which are microeconomics and accoutancy.. both required for my minor in agribusiness but argh~ ='( To add the devastation, I am right now confused on what am I suppose to become in the future? I made plans, sure.. but its just to plain to be true. Kalau ikutkan hati I want a job like Samantha brown or tyra banks, or michelle phan and nani rostam~ its not that I want to be a fashionista, or a makeup artist but I want to have the FREEDOM of doing what I love most and just wave away the haters and focus on my dream~ kan~~ best betul! Its great to be able to do what you love most and doing it with all your heart. awwwuuu~~~~

prep talk
Shereen, you kene la belajar bersyukur. Harini kawan you baru je cerita kat you apa yang terjadi kat Libya and their women. You ni sgt bertuah. So what you have right now doing it the best you can and sentiasa mintak tlg Allah. You know you can't do it without Him. =') Whatever you are shereen, do give your best. Inshallah, sometimes you don't know how close you are to success, so don't give up! Semua pepatah dah keluar ni. Ok la.. untuk mengakhiri ngomelan hari ini I want to show you things that I really think of everyday:

no froyo in east lansing~ mengidam~~

huuu blue mosque, istanbul.. nak pergii ='(

jasmine is always my favourite

this is art

usrah penenang jiwa dan juga pengkabut jiwa

Need to learn how to make this

wanna go tokyo

accoutancy

setiap pagi without fail, inshallah

and of course, I dream of this.. =') inshallah one day, you'll be the chosen one shereen.. one day..inshallah... you'll be closer to Allah than you had ever been.

Ada mulut guna, ada hati guna, ada akal jgn lupa guna

2011-06-20T13:47:00.000-07:00

Salamualaikum,

The lastest update about me is still the same things.. controversi. Actually the reason why I am so famous *ehem* is because people like to talk about me. Yes, bad and good ones, mind you.

Sincerely I don't know why people want to talk about me. But its fine, whatever makes you happy. (But I know that whoever likes to talk bad about me is not a happy person and will never be). ahaks.

I am not going to say I have done nothing wrong and acts like an angel. Of course I have done something wrong silly! (^_^) I am human. Tapi the difference between me and my haters are these perspectives of mine that I highly take as a virtue.

You can follow my tips on how to be happy:

1) Know that the real person you should love in this world no.1 is your parents and your other half. Yang lain tuh not real love, can be KIV. Alhamdulillah I have parents and my other half that loves me more than anything. =') gracias

2) I don't care about people sgt. Let me give you an example. Imagine I was walking along a market and there are a lot of women showing of their keburukkan or kebaikan. For example, terjumpa makcik ni yg tgh tunjuk gelang tangan emas dia and terselisih dgn seorang perempuan yg pakai purdah. I will, 'ouh' ok... whats the focus again? "me" yes I am a self obsessed person. I do things the way I want it too be my way as long as tak bertentangan dgn syarak. I don't care orang nak jadi apa pun, asalkan I know my goals and I am focusing at me.

3) I don't compare myself with others. Mampuih pi la orang camna pun. Takmao aku ikut naa~ Buat pa nak ikut orang~ ikut Al -Quran dan hadis ja la~ gerenti masuk syurga, ikut orang mampuih entah pi mana~

4) I like to be alone. I suka la duduk sorang2 dalam bilik, baca buku, ibadat, exercise, shopping ka. Selain dari dapat berdiri teguh sorang diri, I also learned self discipline. And takda kawan2 tuh baguih kang, kurang mengumpat and drama. Aku yg sorang2 ni pun byk drama tak leh bygkan geng2 berkepit 24/7 tuh. Inshallah kurang dosa na~ ;)

5) Rajin tulang dan suka menolong orang.

6) Jangan la berlagak dan selalu nak menangkan diri. Biar pi la org nak menang. Menang kat dunia tak semestinya menang kat akhirat. =)

Ok, sekian shj tips untuk menjadi happy seperti saya! =))

ps: Apapun, be happy to be yourself. *peluk diri sendiri*

Allah does His best for us in anyway~

2011-06-16T18:53:00.000-07:00

Salam,

Today had the best feeling ever doing exam because whilst preparing, I did other things too. So like multipurpose kinda situation. Masak, makan, kemas, buang sampah, exercise, siap lawa2 pi exam, baca almathurat. Ok la tapi boleh pulak lupa loncapa satu soalan untuk subject lain dan lupa nak bawak pencil case masa exam tadi. apa daa =_= But no worries, everything was written in Lauh Mahfuz, I laughed when I saw that I missed one loncapa question sedangkan mmg dah bajet2 dah bersedia nak buat nih..siap bancuh air bagai. What I used to think was my FUTURE is now my past, so the only thing I could do right now is hop on a time machine named proton kancil. teehee! Kidding, ape lagi? MOVE ON la. *gaya seorang winner*

To me there is no such thing as a loser but just wrong timing. - Shereen.

Hokay, now Alhamdulillah I have almost reached my goals to lose 10kg tp sbb tgh period ni weight fluctuate sket due to water retention. Nanti kita tgk maacm mana. Tapi baju dah mula longgar dan kurang semput. Selain itu, rupa makin cun balik, tak sembab seperti apaman lagi. Rahsia kurus? Senang je, amalkan makanan sihat. Yang dulu saya makan ape dah lupe dah kan but now pagi2 minum susu dan makan kurma.
Petang makan roti dgn protein (ayam or ikan), sayur dan buah buahan mesti ada. Sebab saya ni agak senang turun berat badan walaupun makan ice cream dan chocolate or desserts kadang. Selalu montel macam apaman la kan. Takde la pulak gambar baru nak share. Nanti la kene bukak album time gemok. (masa gemuk kurang berminat nak tangkap gambar sgt) ahahaha. Selain itu sekarang rajin nak minum jus seperti jus carrot dan minum teh. =) Saya juga akan pergi ke gym selama 45 or sejam. syokk woo~ badan sihat diri penuh konfiden dan mudah nak belajar dan buat kerje lain. Cubalah. Kalau saya boleh tentu anda pun boleh.
Inshallah. Selamat mencuba~

Sibuk menjaga kain orang, akhirnya kain kamu yang terselak!

2011-06-15T17:33:00.000-07:00

Opps maaf untuk tajuk yang begitu kontroversi. Tapi kata- kata ini telah dipetik dari peribahasa melayu saya iaitu, 'Jangan sibuk menjaga tepi kain orang'. I can only imagine that this has to do with the first incident when a Malay pervert was trying to peek a boo a kampung girl's sarong and apparently she farted which caused this pervert guy to run back at his friends and shouted ' Jangan sibuk jaga tepi kain orang!! I'm warning you!! It smells' AAHAHAHA.

Joking, seriously.

So previously this is what happened to me. I was caught in motion by this Miss X. And so the case was she said to me that I had to change myself. What?!? *petik jari dan hayun tangan gaya Tyra Banks* Ok, point taken that I have made mistakes and I am willing to change it because I was created not perfect. But rewind skejap, what did I do again? The change that Miss X wanted me to do was actually asking me to change my PERSONALITY. *Aha* Teguran is bagus but if you are asking someone to change their personality is like denying my existence and denying what have Allah created us to become. We can become OURSELVES, UNIQUE SELVES asalkan masih follow the Quran. fullstop. Dah, tak payah sibuk jaga tepi kain aku, kentut kang..

One more thing. I hate people who likes to scrutinize setiap kesalahan orang lain and mulut ringan betul untuk memberi 'komen' and 'critikan' yang kononnya 'ikhlas' dan 'harus diberitahu'. Sibuk menilai orang, memerhati dan menggeleng kepala, tetapi lupa untuk melihat diri sendiri di hadapan cermin itu. Tidakkah kau tahu takde seorang pun pada zaman ini yang PERFECT?! Bukankah lebih baik sekiranya kita membuka hati ini seluas mentari dan menerima semua orang dari segi beza warna kulit hinggalah berbeza akhlak. Dunia ini tak perlukan lagi manusia yang judgemental dan kuat memberi 'komen'. Dunia ini memerlukan orang yang memberi nasihat yang datang tulus dari Quran dan hadis, bak sabda Rasullulahku tersayang, sampaikanlah walaupun sepotong ayat Al Quran dan hadis. =)

Senyumlah kawan, raikan mulut itu dengan senyuman dan dzkir yang bermula dari hati yang mengenali Penciptanya.

lost in time

2011-06-07T21:55:00.000-07:00

this is not the first time I am going through this, but gotta get thru this again.

the failure with managing time.. whats gone wrong this time shereen??

what is not present? life, happiness, inspiration, aspiration, determination, passion, hope, optimism, curiosity, love perhaps?

find and work on it, NOW!

...wait, got it : CONTROL

2011-06-06T19:12:00.001-07:00

over-board-confidence

2011-06-01T18:26:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wondered why I can have my beauty sleep of 8 hours everynight? It is due to the fact that I don't stay up like most students! And due to that too, my skin is jerawat free and soft! ahaha... ok actually, I just took my ECOMONICS exam and It was my first time taking any financial based study. I wasss sooooo confident lah I would ace it! but I changed a lot of my answers at the end of the hour...=_=" huuu definitely not a good sign for Shereen Termizi...emrrmm2 no!

Nevermind let the bygone be bygones~ Now to look forward to another financial class of mine's exam :accountancy. hehehe. Of course here is a few tips and advices that I would like to give to myself!

1) Imagine having the same success as ur inspiration (anyone in particular)
2) Work as hard or even more (no wasting time ok)
3) Study as fast as lightning!
4) Hear and read the quran for better memory and berkat!
5) Take care of ur diet la minah!
6)Exercise
7) Solat hajat sepenuh hati!
8) stop eating maggie

also,

9) please stay up syg~ hiks =)

love u shereen, from shereen. <3

today shereen was .........

pwned by ECONOMICS! TEEHEE! - image from google

teehee

2011-06-01T06:14:00.001-07:00

You're a Bright Spark

You enjoy rich and fulfilling experiences. You're positive and enthusiastic with a strong work ethic that means you strive to perform at the highest level in everything you do. Successful and confident, you have high levels of energy and believe that life is what you make it. You prioritize exercise and wellbeing as part of your commitment to living a healthy lifestyle. When it comes to pursuing your interests, you display great passion and commitment. You enjoy a busy social life and are thoughtful and generous, aiming to give something back to society whenever you can. But you also like to spoil yourself a little too...

You like to be stimulated intellectually and actively seek debate and discussion. Good social interaction makes you feel alive. Never one to rest on your laurels, you truly believe that life is what you make it. You are always seeking out fun new adventures that will excite and inspire. You're a bit of a romantic at heart. Fun for you tends to have a traditional flavor. It's about those special moments when you feel like you've traveled back in time. Bright Spark I enjoy rich and fulfilling experiences. I'm positive and enthusiastic with a strong work ethic that means I strive to perform at the highest level in everything I do.

sakit hati bukan kepalang

2011-05-29T21:04:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum,

Ingat kau sorang je exam, aku pun ade exam next week. Hmm preparation? Still ala kadar macam telur dadar.Harinie aku ni stress betul, macam-macam berlaku lah kan. Macam- macam lah jugak aku belajar tentang kehidupan ni. Mula2 aku buat hal dgn ungkit kesalahan teman yg kuat menipu dan menyebarkan alam blog ini justeru cerita tentang kawan aku ni pun menjadi box office HIT! haha takde la... bukannya ade org yg baca blog bersawang ni. =_="

Selepas itu, aku rasa bersalah sekali kerana pada pukul 4 petang gitu ada tornado warning! Sampai lampu terkedip2 dan bagai lah. Waaa tau tak, aku terus mintak maaf kan member tuh and solat sunat nasuha kau tau. Sbb tornado ni macam twister tuh lah.. pokok bergoncang kencang and angin kuat macam panggilan sakaratul maut!! grrrrrrr waaaaa ='0

Bagus betul experience camgini. Tersedar sekejap macam lepas tadabur surah al hadid ngan seha 16-23 tuh..
mati sorang2 masuk kubur sorang2 and dosa jgn tanggung untuk semua org. Aku ni mmg jenis yg cepat tak puas hati and suka nak cari kesalahan org len untuk memuaskan diri sendiri. *woshh jahat gler bunyi*
miowwwee!! mawi? ewwww... ok continue..

Pastuh baru aku sedar aku nih tamak. Semua jenis kejayaan aku nak.. aku nak jadi kurus, nak pandai, nak cukup tidur, nak sihat, nak makan nak kerja, nak usrah, nak handle program nak semua jenis nak.. nak jadi alrounder la konon but the truth is capabilities aku ni terhad. In some situation there must be a balance of taking up and giving up. But in the long run, inshallah prioritized things will be accomplished. =')

Aku ni je jenis tak bersyukur, apa yg ada depan mata lagi nak buat dajal bg mende tuh kene tarik balik baru tahu. Pas ni nak duduk diam2, pikir yg apa aku ada and gengam erat2 and slowly and steadily work on it sampai dapat buat yg terbaik. Iaitu, studies and usrah. =') kan kan~~ mende lain please jgn risaukan sgt.

Pastuh aku ni cepat lupa, lupa yg ade org lain yg lebih kurang bernasib baik dari haku and perlulah aku kuat2 bersyukur and jgn cenggeng sgt dkt Allah mintak nak everything sbb everything will be given only in jannah. So kalau nak everything, make sure you go there.

Untuk member tuh yg aku kutuk cow-cow tuh *moooooo*, sorry la ye beb. ruang blog ni mmg tempat aku melepaskan geram kesumat maharaja hulago khan. Kalau ckp depan 2 lagi sakit kan.. baik kau bersyukur aku tak hambur je depan kau kan. biasala org tgh marah.. aku pikir kalau aku simpan sorg2 sakit la plak hati ni. takkan nak bunuh diri plak kan astaghfiruallahalazim. nauzubillah. jgn la plak ko nak samakan aku ngan kau. kau tuh lelaki, lain ngan caranya kalau lelaki and perempuan emo. Lagi satu, aku nak nasihatkan semua org, jgn la jadi follower aku atau pun baca pun blog ni sbb aku mmg slalu mengumpat and emoticon kat sini. taknak sakit hati or menambah dosa korg kayh. Ingat, aku dah pesan. hua3

ok. sampai sini jela ek. yg baca ni ambil lah ikhtibar dari cerita aku yg vague ni. hahaha. daa doakan exam aku selamat2 ajaa yg dong!

credit to google, byk la mende alah ni tumbuh dekat sekitar rumah aku skarang, meliar tuu. ;)

taking a deep breath

2011-05-27T14:44:00.000-07:00

fuuhh today after coming back from a lunch date with farah, I met seha otw back. Then she invited me to study at her house. I refused because I wanted to clean my house.
Seha: but kak shereen, your house is already clean.

Aku terdiam sekejap dan continued saying "no,no byk sepah"

Hakikatnya rumah aku mmg kemas bagi pada mata kasarnya. Tetapi setiap hari, mesti ada rambut baru yg gugur, tanah dan debu yg baru dan juga kotoran sinki dan di atas dapur.

Lantai walaupun sudah disapu tetapi takkan sama seperti dimop. Sbb debu2 yg kecil tuh dibasahi dan bersih sekali.

Tatkala sibuk menyapu, mengelap dan mengemop rumah, tetiba aku terdetik..mengapa aku ni suka sgt kemas rumah?

Pada mulanya, aku ni jiwang sket, so terpikir la dek iman di hati and cube relatekan dgn keadaan rumah ni.
Iman ni kene dibersihkan sawang jahiliah tiap2 hari, juga perlu disiram dgn dzkir dan alquran, perlu dimopkan kotoran sekularism dan juga perlu disental sifat malas dan putus asa setiap hari dan perlu di spray dgn pewangi yg berjenama 'akhlak murni'. Itulah iman, yg tak dapat dilihat dek mata tp boleh dirasa dgn hati. =')
Kalau tak dijaga rumah bernama iman ni nanti kelak porak peranda la diri macam tong sampah.

So ade la a few other reasons popped up:

1) Aku nih allergic debu, senang sneeze/
2) Serabut kepala and tak dapat pikir
3) Sambut org datang rumah biar selesa.
4) Halau setan
5) Qudwah hasanah (contoh yg baik)

Ngee selesa sgt selepas kemas. meh usha rumah aku. =)

my comfy room and meja study

dresser untuk letak bj

necklace organizer from UK

Ruang tamu sesuai untuk bergolek- golek

simple and simple

ruang dapur dan singki yg baru disental =)

Pastuh memandangkan sekarang pharmacy tak menyediakan service for flu injection, so I was recommended to take this indoor and outdoor allergies from CVS pharmacy. telan je lah kan. layan~ hehe. doa2 Allah terima usaha ni and kurang flu setiap pagi, petang dan malam.. huuuu

hari - hari yg tidak seberapa cerah

2011-05-26T05:15:00.000-07:00

Genap setahun, my influenza shot is no longer in me. Hence the same old sneezing and nose jam I used to get came back. Mind you it lasts for dayss from morning till night, drip drip and effects my eyesight. really uncomfortable so I am going to get a shot today, inshallah.

Again, today tak bgn for tahajud.. to tired I guess, from doing something, I don't know..the flu maybe? *shrugs* I really have to get out from my comfort zone. In 5 days I will have 2 exams but I haven't been preparing well yet. =_="

I don't like doing things that I don't want to do.. like keeping my hair long coz the house gets messy with hair.. I'm getting my haircut today.

People are dying in palestine and from tornados, floods and other natural disasters are everywhere. How can I stand here and do nothing?!!

why some people just don't care about anything except for themselves. makes me mad. selfish people. wekk

done whining for today.

Allahuakbar!

2011-05-25T14:09:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ovnhXDNH4rw&feature=player_embedded#at=62

Watch this and spread the truth. Allahuakbar! Thank you Allah for reminding me. =')

reality check

2011-05-25T03:41:00.000-07:00

salamualaikum,

In my head, I keep babbling about the things that I should do but the fact is that I am doing everything I can (lagha ) to not do the things that I am supposed to do. Why eh?

Today, discipline is going to be implemented inside and outside of myself! Inshallah!! gogogog! Jadual dah buat so kene lah ikut. =')

Enough of pampering yourself Shereen. Strive to be the best among the best okays, dunia akhirat. inshallah. =))

Tips to save money

2011-05-24T13:19:00.000-07:00

Salam everyone,

Today was a so-so day for me and so I decided to make sushi because frequent visits to Sushiya has made my pocket torn apart and I could easily make my own healthy and delicious sushi for half the price!

the end result

the things I used

layer it with your own taste

the perfect wrap

I prefer some kimchi with sushi~ Love the tang it gives.

So ladies and gents, sila2 rajin memasak demi menyelamatkan duit dari kedai2 yg mengamalkan riba secara berleluasa ni. Sekali masuk kedai sushi mesti 20 dollars camtuh habes. This was only like 5-6 dollars for everything. Good luck! Next time you can put fried chicken, or even tempura prawns inside! Be creative!

Apa erti hidup tanpa jadual dan disiplin

2011-05-23T04:17:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum semua,

Setelah usai solat berjemmah subuh dan membaca almathurat pagi tadi, aku gagahkan diri dan iman untuk tidak tidur selepas subuh. Itu jihad pertama aku setiap pagi. Akan sibukkan diri dgn mengemas rumah, mandi dan membuat activity2 lain. Yang pasti, bukan tidur. Ada kalanya kalau bisikan syaitan lagi kuat dari bisikan fiurqan, mmg aku akan terus tidur dan bgn dalam pukul 8am. Semasa itu nanti, aku rasakan masa seakan sudah 1/2 habis
yelah, sekarang ni kan summer and semua kelas aku online sahaja. Mmg perasaan malas and relax itu bermaharaja lela. Akan tetapi Shereen!! U need to wake up!! Sistem deen sebenar dah musnah, you need to bring back the agama fitrahh!!! There is no time to relax and bermanja2 mengikut musim dan kalender jahiliah!!
Selain dari mengemas rumah,study dan memenuhkan buku mutabaah amal, aku pun akan buat program ISK di MSU ni lagi dua minggu. Harap sesiapa di USA ni akhawat sahaja la ye dapatla hadirkan diri.*hikhik*

Ok, so nak share la sket jadual aku dalam sehari2:

5am: subuh, almathurat, bfast,
6am: kemas rumah
7am: pi gym or main basikal, basketball
8am: mandi manda and ready to go to union
9.3am: study at union (bilik study)
12pm: balik rumah
1pm :lunch and solat
2.30: activity bebas
4.30: study
6pm: solat and gym and dinner
9pm: hafazan or bahan tarbiyah
10.3 :isyak and almulk
1045: tidosss

ni plan je but slalu tak ikut sbb TAK CUKUP DISIPLIN!

conclusionnye disipline and plan must work together! =) teehee have a nice day!

Finally a nice blog.

2011-05-22T12:13:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum,

I have always wanted a nice background to my blog but because of my clueless ness in IT, I doubt that an animal science degree student could do such things.. things that are meant for MIT student. lol!

Ini moto ku buat masa ni

2011-05-20T14:19:00.000-07:00

"Aku tak layan sampah, banyak lagi benda aku

nak pikir"

-FL

-mode gangster sket-

habit aku

2011-05-17T06:50:00.000-07:00

Salam dear folks,

Today nak write about my 'sifat-sifat':

1) I like to wake up awal subuh and tahajud then lepas subuh tanak tidur.. (tp kalau dah letih sgt tidur balik)
Sebab kalau bgn lambat dan tidur lepas subuh seyes rasa menyesal and satu hari rasa pendek!

2) Suka sgt sapu sampah pagi2 dan bukak tingkap kasi cahaya matahari dan udara segar masuk. suka2 sgt kemaskan katil dan lepas tuh terus pi exercise!

3) Balik pastuh suka masak telur scramble eggs and kemaskan diri solat dhuha and baca almathurat and terus study! suka3

4) by this time rasa dah accomplished sgt!

Sekarang ni ada target baru~

1) Nak tulis kata2 semangat biar penuh dinding for study, and nak kuruskan badan sgt2!

2) Nak isi masa dengan perkara bermanfaat byk2!!

3) Semoga berjaya. (hohoho) ameen.

be in the moment

2011-05-16T15:35:00.000-07:00

Today I woke up and started jogging, as soon as finished the first round I realized it was 10.08am and my first class this summer (spanish) starts at 10.20. And so, without washing up (mandi) I hopped into my bicycle (cewahh bunyi macam kereta pula) and head straight to class.. (ewwwwwwwww)

Satgi in the class~ I sat down lah and belajar sket2 about the geographical places such as argentina, mexico, peru, puerto rico and cuba.. yeap I can now point them in the map. Impressive for a person who is half awake and nontheless sweaty.. (another round of 'ewwwww' please)

As the class was coming to an end, the lecturer blabbed about the text book.. mak aihh!! it was a flabbergestering 149 dollars! I walked out and dropped the class feeling confident I can learn spanish from youtube and google translator. teehee!

So of course I cycled back and mandi manda /makan / solat etc and alhamdulillah my flu and fever have cured due to Allah's superpower and the gentle and loving care from seha and aqilah who was not invited to take care of me but like alwayss...

text sms
seha: kak shereen ok ke? nak kitorg datang?

me: tak yohh... pi tido le.

*knock2*

seha: kitorg dah kat depan rumah ni

me: (^_^) / ( =_=") <----- both feelings at the same time

But they took really good care of me. Alhamdulillah.. dear readers please pray for these two girls to go jannah with me ok! =)))

Then I decided to take french. Ok la kot since I have been talking a bit of french when I visited Paris last winter. hehehe

After mandi and everything I headed to campus to buy books. In the bus pulak ada this indian guy chatted with me and what caught my attention was when he said

indian guy: "we must talk to the trees and nothing in this world is not a living thing. If you believe in quantum physics, everything is a vibrating atom and so to vibrate, it must be alive"

*ternganga jap*

Its so true you know when you think about it that everything is actually a living thing! Mmg Allah dah nyatakan dalam Al-Quran that semuanya adalah makhlukNya. Mashallah. After this I do not want to take my scenery for granted.. every footstep I take and every breath I breathe I must appreciate Allah for giving it to me~ and all of us. =')

Be in each and every moment. The bus 20 that was late which I had taken earlier (past) had used to be my (future) <---- inspiring indian man.

summer semester starts....

2011-05-15T13:15:00.000-07:00

with a flu and fever. =) Alhamdulillah...Inshallah kifarah dosa..

for now..

Accountancy and air sirap bandung +edamame sounds nice to me~ =)

Just a speck

2011-05-15T05:53:00.000-07:00

I like and always think that I am big enough to consume this world as if it was my own playground. But always I am the team leader. But reality sometimes strike hard and pops my fantasy bubble and makes me realize : there is always someone better than me.

Of course, I get mad, jealous and sad, all at the same time. haihhhzzzz, at the end of the day I feel that this is actually not a 'bad news' but more of a booster and also an inspiration for me to climb higher. They too lack something that I apparently have. ;) It makes the world equal. After a lot of thinking... I understand that how much we compare ourselves to one another, there is a simple conclusion Allah is trying to tell me: Everyone has their own unique battle. Everyone is equal in the eyes of Allah except those who surrender to Him is the highest.

Hopefully you and I will never be lost in comparing ourselves with others. Wallahualam.

Perasaan hasad dengki (phD)

2011-05-15T05:46:00.000-07:00

Salam sejahtera semua
Pada pagi yang riang ini saya ingin berkongsi pengalaman dan cerita saya. Saya ni average je org nya, nak kata lawa, or cun sgt tuh takde la.. (hikhik) or nak kata pandai genius 4.0 je memanjang takdela.. or nak kata saya ni alim sgt dan berpengaruh tuh takde la~

Point saya adalah saya yg secuit begini pun ade yg mendengki dengan saya. Org yg mendengki ni dah lama dah dia berdendam dengan saya. Tapi saya tetap bahagia sebab yg rosak bukannya saya, tetapi dia. Dengki mendengki ini ibarat satu barah, kalau dilayan, nanti muka dan hati makin rosak dan hilang seri. Manusia ni ada aura tau~ kalau u positive inshallah org sekeliling you pun boleh rasa and nak ikut sekali positive energy you tp kalau u negative and dengki~ mengumpat memanjang and asik2 tak puas hati je dengan org lain, nanti org takmo kawan dengan you sbb terasa 'aura' negative itu.

Perkara ni mmg real kawan2, jadi janganlah mendengki. Saya ni seyes byk kekurang dan kelebihan lemak..
And saya belajar tak pernah masuk dean's list lagi.. kalau ade yg ckp "ouh shereen tuh bukan pandai sgt" , haa cakaplah sbb itu mmg saya mengaku sendiri.. atau kalau nak ckp "ouh shereen tuh bajet je mengemas rumah or selfish" haa mmg betul lah itu.. I am an average person yg buat dosa and byk kelemahan. I don't know myself, only Allah knows me better than I do.

picture by google

Jadi dah2 la nak berhasrat dengki tuh seyes, bukan nya I yg rugi. Just kesian tgk you all yg rugi. Kalau nak mendengki pun pi la dengki kat org yg gah sket.. ni nak dengki ngan aku..bukannya ade apapepun. Buat malu je.Apapun lastly nak ckp, kalau lihat kelebihan org itu, better ambil dia as an inspiration rather than making your heart black mengumpat and sok sek2 keburukan dia. Ambil la teguran dari sesiapan pun and gunakan sebaik mungkin untuk memperbaiki diri inshallah..

Sekian from me~ muahhxx

a token of love

2011-05-14T08:52:00.000-07:00

tq saladin~~ =))

A seat at the back

2011-05-13T21:44:00.000-07:00

I just came back from Auntie Zainin's open house. Alhamdulillah tlg main ngan budak2 , basuh pnggan and bakar ayam.

I fear some people because of their meaness to me. People who tak 'ngam' with me usually will try to not make eye contact and ignore me. Heehehe. So this time, other than ignoring them too, I made the gesture of 'salam tangan' and wish some nice words to them. Not bad kan? =))) Alhamdulillah Allah bg kekuatan.

As we wanted to go back, kak Josephine invited us into her car and offered me and farah liyana a ride home. And my motto 'why not' was applied. In the short ride, I learned more about life. Kak Josephine is a phD candidate and only 24 years old!! can you believe that?!! I am 22!! She is young, independent and matured for her age. Mashallah. She corrected me and added more experience values into my life and principles. Life is all about sharing our strength and weaknesses. She had a relationship with 2 muslim arab saudi guys and broke up. However, she told me that the breakup was hard but she learned about life and Islam. Mashallah You do work in the most mysterious ways and surprising too! I learned that determination is the key to almost achieve anything and nothing is impossible! People who are negative because they are just jealous. It was raining too at that time. =))

I love you Allah, hope You love me too! And please make me more grateful for everything.

malas

2011-05-11T06:20:00.000-07:00

Di antara sifat-sifat syaitan itu adalah malas. Dan diantara sebab-sebab org masuk neraka mesti ada sifat malas.
Malas untuk solat awal, malas untuk solat subuh, malas untuk membaca quran dan sebagainya.

Malas ini satu disease yg menghinggap di hati ibarat parasit makin hari hati makin luput dan lansung berlubang2 seperti kayu dimakan anai-anai~

AKU TIDAK MAHU MENJADI MALAS! AYUH SHEREENN!!!!! BGN BERLARI LAJU!!!

Tribute to those who remembered my bday!

2011-05-10T07:42:00.000-07:00

Every year, a princess (ihiks) will celebrate her bday on the 28th of April.. and this year the princess turns 16, NOT!

babah and mama = ca-ching!

auntie sue = ca-ching!

kak dd and freida : wish

fuzz = flowers and forever 21 dress

nor (roomate) = lily flower pot

abby (neighbour) = choc milk and herseys cookies and cream chocs

shearon = rantai rue 21

mei yueh = a surprising bday email!!

alot and amal = gojesforever 21 bag

Hmm ok itu je la kot. I need to write it here because I don't want to forget the sweet things people do out of love for me. =') I want to try to be as sweet and loyal to them no matter what happens. =') You guys are deeply cherished in my heart! <3

Here are some pictures:

both are Lillies coz i Love lilies other than orchids =)

this one was soo sweet coz I told Allah how much I wanted it! =')

these small things makes me weep!

cute kaaaaannnnn~~

when it bloomss~

Thank you so much too to others who wished they had known when was my birthday because I sengaje deleted my facebook that time. Hiks! Thank you for the duas from tebaran semut group!

Love,
Me!

ca-ching!

2011-05-09T17:39:00.000-07:00

Like every scholar, the end of the semester can be a challenging one. Why? Because the pockets ain't ringing 'ca-ching!'

I just got my last allowance from JPA last month I think it was 2 days before my birthday, and thank you babah and auntie sue for more 'allowance'. Very much appreciated thank you. hiks

As soon as I got the money, I practically swore not to overspend it but alas! =_= IN DESPAIR~~
Let me just show you what I bought (at least of what I still remember)...
1) 2 corelle sets
2) 20 dollars worth of peppridge farm cookies and GODIVA chocolates for dearest friends and professors. =) departing gifts till fall.. (aww shucksss =') )
3) 2 bottle tumbler for babah and dad (hope they like it)
4) Belanja kawan- kawan makan KFC at detroit (sempena bday that day)
5) Carpet and flowers for house (so that rumah lagi mesra alam to welcome adik2 usrah and kawan2)
6) Ayam and daging al quds (stock 3 bulan, hehe)
7) Body massage for better body and blood flow at chinese spa (ehh mestila wajib kan sekali satu semester?)
8) pink earphones (lost the old one)
9) coach pouch for mama
10) fossil wallet for babah
11) new fossil watch strap for me (dashing!!)
12) 2 new MSU t-shirt for me (summer is here so I need more t-shirts... *alasann* )
13) new scarf from pitaya
14) text book for summer class (blerghh)
15) and whole loads on GROCERIES
16) eating out with friends.

tgk la at my beaming face of victory? =_= faill....

another paraphernalia for mom-dad obsession to buy them gifts

om nom nom nommmmm - sushiya spicy udon and a glimps of oiishii sushi. >_<

Huuu all this in less than a month! Can you believe it? *gasp*

This semester, starting tomorrow I am going to keep my money and try my best to not spend a single cent! I want to be more frugal by:

1) Not eating out!
2) Stop wasting food ( be smart about it shereen)
3) No more 'alaaa ade duit lagi dalam bank...' attitude!!!
4) or 'alaaa lepas beli ni tak beli lagi dah.. good investment...' attitude!!!!
5) Or 'I deserve this because I deserve it' attitude yeee!!!
6) I don't want to travel 'main2'
7) Sedekah byk2 dekat org susah (baru Allah berkati)
8) I need a summer job. Got 2 interviews ni. (one as Academic Orientation Program for MSU and the other one as a babysitter for Farah) huuu~~ doakan la ye dapat.

Actually bukan nak jadi kedekut but I need to train to restrain myself because I am so so so so laid back about keeping money. Dah2 ye..

My target is to bring 5k usd back to Malaysia. I know some people can do better but who cares ya, I am talking about me and not you! One Allowance doesn't fit all! ;)

All in a day's work

Pemilik aura bercahaya

Syukur

serabut.. pening

Tutup buku lama, bermulalah lembaran baru

8 more days to go

7 Billion, National Geographic Magazine

masa yang habis

Topic penat

New Food Blog

Puncak harapan

Pagi yang ceria dan segar~!

Iklan

A wedding plan too early ;P

Bestfriends to me

Webcam 101 for Seniors....

Debussy, Clair de lune (piano music)

Insecurities

preparing mentally for eid

ramadhan ya ramadhan~

itulah erti 'waktu'

Sekadar bermimpi disiang hari

rest and work

second chance

Holiday in Indiana~

change

Ada mulut guna, ada hati guna, ada akal jgn lupa guna

Allah does His best for us in anyway~

Sibuk menjaga kain orang, akhirnya kain kamu yang terselak!

lost in time

over-board-confidence

teehee

You're a Bright Spark

sakit hati bukan kepalang

taking a deep breath

hari - hari yg tidak seberapa cerah

Allahuakbar!

reality check

Tips to save money

Apa erti hidup tanpa jadual dan disiplin

Finally a nice blog.

Ini moto ku buat masa ni

habit aku

be in the moment

summer semester starts....

Just a speck

Perasaan hasad dengki (phD)

a token of love

A seat at the back

malas

Tribute to those who remembered my bday!

ca-ching!